missing someone

I'm missing someone very important to me right now. A lot of people who care about me have told me i should forget this person because of the way they are treating me right now, I know that i might not deserve what is happening right now but I honestly don't really care about that. I know that if this person called me and was like im at the hospital i just had a car wreck or my car broke down or i ran out of gas or Kansas i'm stuck without a ride i would be right there, no questions asked because this person means the world to me. At one point in our lives i meant something to him to and i believe i still do its just burried under all the hurt, frustration and anger. I don't think we need to hate each other forever because of something that seems so small when you look back on it. I have gotten over all the crying everyday and avoiding him, but every night he's there in my dreams and everything is fine and i wake up to a nightmare of a real world. I know he has to miss talking to me. I have a bunch of stuff to talk to him about, stuff we would normally talk about together when we were out or on our way to class. i miss our random, funny conversations, i could tell him just about anything and it would be fine. we generally get along pretty well but sometimes when we have already had a bad day or something we say things to each other that we know we shouldnt. I know i really messed up but it has now been a month since we have spoken. I want to talk to him.
I really do miss him.